This is now. And tomorrow will be something completely different.
This past week has been a hard one. Honestly, that’s saying it very lightly. I can’t even fathom how incredibly awful this past week has been. I’ve hit all time lows, and made myself sicker then I’ve been in years, fully from not eating anything, and laying around being depressed and sleeping. Overall things just weren’t good for me. Tonight will change that, I hope. Not that I feel as if things are going to go totally how I’d like them to go. But there are still so many questions I have. I’ve been left in the dark. I was thrown to the curb with no notice, and little reason. I’ve cooked up these answers and reasons that might’ve caused all of this, in my head. Blaming myself. Putting myself down. Wanting nothing but to hurt myself more then I do to the others around me. Or at least that’s what I led myself to believe all of these days. But I overcome it, and tonight will mark another change. Tonight we will talk. Tonight there will be questions, to possible change all of these answers I have floating around in my head. Turn them into new answers. One’s that will change my mind-set about myself, and even you. For the better, obviously. Not that I truly think it’s possible for me to think any bit of negativity towards you. I just hope that I’m ready for this. To see you again. And not be how we were the last time. Though, I do miss it. And I miss you. But that is past. And this now. And tomorrow will be something completely different.